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Jan. 18th, 2009 @ 10:34 am N&O: Phoenix Risen in North Carolina
http://www.newsobserver.com/opinion/columns/story/1372344.html

http://www.newsobserver.com/622/story/1372067.html
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Dec. 14th, 2008 @ 04:06 pm (no subject)
My vote for the most ridiculous article of 2008 is "Gays, blacks, and NCSU's tunnel" in the Raleigh News & Observer on December 3rd.


It argued that the NAACP should stop pursuing anti-hate speech policies at North Carolina's public universities because then gay activists would use those policies to stop religious speech. The columnist went on to argue that since black people don't like gay people (and there isn't an overlap between the two), logically, the NAACP should stop trying to stop hate speech.


If you found that logic trying, you should read the actual article above. I'm proud of myself that my letter to the editor in response was published on the 10th (yes, I'm a bit behind in reading the paper).

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Aug. 11th, 2008 @ 10:31 am When Batman was gay
http://www.q-notes.com/2008/08/09/when-batman-was-gay/
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Jul. 2nd, 2008 @ 11:50 am How to Elicit False Confessions 101
So, our coercion (read likely torture) techniques we use in Guantanamo are based on ones used by the Chinese in the 1950s to ELICIT ILLICIT CONFESSIONS. Yes, that's right, they were designed to get false confessions that could then be used in the media. It's a whole new level of WTF?

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/07/02/us/02detain.html
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Jun. 28th, 2008 @ 10:51 am Michelle Obama: "From Selma to Stonewall"
From Pam's House Blend: "Michelle Obama connects the dots...from Selma to Stonewall"

http://www.pamshouseblend.com/showDiary.do?diaryId=5926
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Jun. 25th, 2008 @ 09:54 pm (no subject)
Lovely weekend in Asheville with the parents and friends. Had my car washed for the first time in two years at a tienda on New Leicester Hwy. Cost me $18, but my car is a color I didn't even recognize. Who knew that it was white under all that grime? Tacos are also good at the taqueria movil out front. Then off to Lenscrafters for prescription sunglasses, and, of course, while waiting for them I had to survey the clearance racks at Dillard's, Sears, and Old Navy. It was a good time, but a little bit of a jolt for the credit card.

I've just been accepted for an apartment in downtown Durham. So exciting. Pictures forthcoming when my lease starts. Meeting with the folks at my new job tomorrow to do logistics on start date, etc.
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Jun. 17th, 2008 @ 11:17 am Summer Reading
I've just finished reading James Baldwin's "Go Tell It on the Mountain" and am now working on "Fatal Advice: How Safe-Sex Education Went Wrong" by Cindy Patton.
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May. 24th, 2008 @ 12:02 pm (no subject)
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May. 11th, 2008 @ 02:23 pm MPH
I now have a master's degree!

And, in celebration of being done with school, I have just finished reading:

The Shipping News by Annie Proulx, which was good but didn't keep me on the edge of my seat.
The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian by Sherman Alexie, which was quite funny and quite sad at times but is a wonderful book.

Currently, I'm working on Blood Done Sign My Name.
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Apr. 15th, 2008 @ 05:31 pm Emotive
Sitting on the train today on my way to Maebashi, I realized that I haven’t had a vacation in almost a year. I foolishly started and ended my summer job right up against school at both ends, worked in addition to school through the year, and then had a never-ending set of Student Government activities that kept me busy. I tend to have to go on vacation to decide things in my life, somehow being stuck in an airplane on the way to Chicago (I decided to end a relationship) and being in Japan for a year (I “realized” I was gay) make it easier to step back and think about things.

This trip with a month in Thailand, a week in Singapore, and a few vacation days at the end to collect myself in Japan was a bit grueling but wonderful. I loved Thailand with its food and people who were very chill. (I’ve decided that “chill” is the optimal adjective to the Thais, while “cavalier” might work best for Bolivia. I’m still struggling with how to describe the United States and Japan, which are both over-the-top albeit in very different ways.) Anyway, I was instantly befriended by the staff in Thailand, and they were wonderful co-workers who I greatly enjoyed. My job, however, required almost round-the-clock work and, even then, I was not able to keep up with the work. When I have to be, I am quite efficient. Then, my boss arrived, berated me for not doing various things that he’d never told me to do and that aren’t a logical part of what I am supposed to be doing, and didn’t speak to me for two days except to issue orders (like repeating over and over to bold the heading on slide three of the fourth presentation). Yes, this goes even at meal times when I was sitting beside him. Don’t get me wrong, I’m stressful for him because we don’t see eye-to-eye on anything and he struggles to communicate with me what he wants, which may well be a fault on both our parts. I found the conference so stressful that I almost cried three times during it, would slump over in the elevator on my way back to my room and pray for it to be over, and was quite miserable. And, in those elevator moments, I vowed that I would never do this again. I’ve organized workshops and panels before and it’s stressful, but it doesn’t have to be painful. The pain just came from having a boss who is compulsive and incommunicative.

I’ve wanted out of this job since the first day when I started and suggested we do an “assessment” or survey of the people we were going to be working for to see what they wanted. He rejected it flatly saying there is nothing to be learned from such things. (Assessment is basically God’s law in public health, and it’s been practically beaten into me that it’s not a good idea to do what you think is best for whatever community you’re working for…rather it is only proper to find out what the community thinks and go from there.) Thailand settled that.

Japan, however, is more complicated. Seeing my friend whose parents survived the Cambodia genocide always reminds me of how cruel the world is, of the resilience that people have, and puts into perspective my life that has been very busy but with little direction. Taking stock of that, I’ve concluded that I don’t want my job to be my life unless I can find something absolutely perfect (like on the health of gay and lesbian families in North Carolina), and, thus, I need a good, stable, and interesting job in public health that will give me time to do things that make me happy: 1) see my friends and family, 2) read books, 3) work on gay and lesbian health issues in North Carolina, and 4) be useful in general, perhaps with helping out my friend’s school-building project in Cambodia by fundraising in the United States. My people (I know I overuse that phrase but I do it on purpose) queer or just Carolinians have our own set of health problems and I can be more effective here in North Carolina in improving health than anywhere else.

To that end, I have a three-year plan with various goals in no particular order:

1) House
2) Boyfriend
3) Smoke-free gay bar campaign in North Carolina
4) Publish my grandmother’s children’s book for her estate
5) Make video recordings of various relatives telling stories of their childhood
6) Incorporate a 501(c)3 chapter of Baby Tree Projects
7) Bake bread
8) Cook dinners for friends
9) Publish my master’s paper
10) Be part of general public health community in North Carolina.
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Apr. 4th, 2008 @ 05:15 pm Smokin' Karaoke
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Yes, while I was unable to find Doc and Merle Watson's song "Smoke, Smoke, Smoke" which is quite genius, the Thai karaoke machines did have "Barbie Girl" by Aqua and "Livin' La Vida Loca" by Ricky Martin. I sang them in my best singing voice. (Note that I always lip synched during music class in elementary school for the benefit of all others. Those of you who've been subjected, perhaps just docjen and magidnaywards, know this.) Now, this was no normal karaoke event. First, it involved no alcohol. Second, the background video to half of the songs was of women with 80's hair taking off their bathing suits after being doused with pitchers of water. That is bizarre enough to send one up to fits of giggles when you're singing a John Lennon song and the background is soft porn. But, I almost died because I was there with a head of a research unit at a major Asian university who calls me "dear," and two other women who are major figures in international tobacco control (one of whom can be kind of proper and reminds me of my mother), an opthamologist, and two co-workers who are my age.

I personally think that singing "Barbie Girl" in front of that crowd is enough to be ridiculous, but add in some soft porn and you have what is perhaps the strangest evening of my life.

The best line of the night: "This is [our office's] song" at which point a girl in a bar has a pitcher of water poured over her, waves her 80s hair, and jiggles.

I survived our conference, as well, and I'm excited about going to visit friends in Japan and relaxing.
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Mar. 29th, 2008 @ 07:49 pm Back from SIN City
I'm back from Singapore (airport code: SIN), where I lived in a hotel for a week. Four days of conference in a windowless room totally decorated in yellow and gold required a few trips to the grocery store for small bottles of wine. Singapore reminds me of Yokohama, Japan, but with way more English. It's nice to be back in Bangkok where the local dry cleaner has memorized my name for her forms, which is quite nice. Singapore had some nice shopping so I'm now ready for any dancing with some new shirts. (One of them is from a store called "Topman"; I had to buy something, who could resist, but I tried to find the most versatile shirt I could: pink with little pink faces with glasses on it. Mhmm.) Our big conference starts on Monday with the beginnings of it happening on Sunday. Yikes. That pains me just thinking about it.
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Mar. 18th, 2008 @ 06:30 pm These are a few of my favorite things
I have a new affinity for Thai food after my very, very wonderful co-workers continued our culinary lunch tour series through the neighborhood. Yesterday was a breaded, fried pork over rice with good sauce. It was today, however, that I knew I would be having a wonderful month. My "pig leg on rice" dish came with fatty pig leg skin and a little leg over rice with a nice set of greens on the side. This is after I was given an appetizer of boiled peanuts. Then I tried my coworker's dish, which she claimed was fried catfish but I think was fried catfish skin because it tasted almost exactly like a fried pork rind. And I cannot for the life of me find an unsweetened bottle of green tea.

My goal for the day was to stay awake until 7 p.m. I've made it to 6:30, so I have hope but I'm not promising anything.

Pig fat, goober peas, sweet tea, and pork rind flavor. Who knew Thai cooking overlapped so well with Southern cooking?

PS: Heather, yes I bought a camera, and it's bright blue. Now I just have to remember to take it with me to work. I'm going to buy laundry soap tomorrow so I can do laundry. Promise.
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Mar. 16th, 2008 @ 04:01 pm Cabbage, Commercial Infant Formula, Condoms, Camera
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Sunday was much more successful than Saturday. (On Saturday I accidentally fell asleep at 2 p.m., woke up at 4:30 p.m., and then went to bed at 5:30 p.m. to wake up at midnight. I worked on my master's paper until 4 a.m. and then was up at 6 a.m. Sunday.) Today I have vowed that I will drink any amount of caffeine it takes to stay awake until at least 8 p.m. Right now it's 4 p.m., so I'm well on the way. Anyway, I successfully negotiated dry cleaning service, walked up the monorail line two stops to a big park (it's a non-smoking park) on the way to which I encountered a billboard advertising commercial infant formula directly to consumers (the English emphasized that it contained choline). That is totally illegal under an international convention, so I realized I needed a camera to share it with my favorite infant and young child feeding (aka, breast feeding) advocates at UNC.


On the way to buy the camera, though, I stopped off at a restaurant called Condoms & Cabbages (food and safe sex, my favorite combination especially when it involves fried pork). Now that I have a few condom-themed goodies and a new Durex condom that came in place of the mint with my bill, my life seems somehow more complete. Food was good, and they have amazing shirts, including "Stop Global Warming: Use a Condom" and the olympic rings made out of condoms with "Weapons of Mass Protection". Hehehehe. BUT, they were all in size XL. Stores catering to foreigners don't carry my size!


Onward to the mega-mall (well the cheaper of the two mega-malls) in Bangkok where they do carry my size. So, now I have four new shirts that are fitted and actually fit me, a new pair of jeans, had a cute gay salesman try to sell me really ugly shirts (almost too gay to function if I were to be mean about it). Being in Bangkok is not as bad as being in Tokyo, but even here I feel severely underdressed not so much in formalness but in style.


I haven't had a cup of coffee in four days, and it's really starting to get to me, and I can't figure out which brand/variety of bottled green tea in the store isn't sweetened. I keep answering people in some weird combination of English, Japanese, and Spanish, which hasn't been helping my communication abilities. Tomorrow I have to go to work. Sigh. Oh, and I sweat through my shirt by 11 a.m., through parts of my wallet by 12 p.m., and through my entire wallet by 1 p.m. It's hot here. Those little annoyances aside (well, perhaps, the coffee is becoming a serious problem), it's going to be a good month.

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Mar. 15th, 2008 @ 09:14 am In Thailand
First impression: Thailand is a weird combination of Japan and Bolivia. Second impression: the streets smell like food. Third impression: I must get my language skills in gear so I can be ordering food! Must run to meeting with partner at SEATCA (http://www.seatca.org). Fourth impression: 28 hours of travel time almost killed me.
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Dec. 11th, 2007 @ 02:34 pm Clove
Making a pot roast and I spilled too much clove...so my house smells amazing. Not sure how dinner will be, though.
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Nov. 24th, 2007 @ 05:39 pm Dinner with Kevin
20 McNuggits, small chocolate shake, honey mustard sauce - they come in three cool shapes.
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Jul. 18th, 2007 @ 09:12 pm NCGS §14-177
On the front page of the City&State section of Raleigh's paper (the News and Observer), there's an article noting that someone in Cumberland County has been charged for intentionally infecting someone else with HIV. Assault with a deadly weapon (the HIV is the weapon according to the paper)...fine and good. Assault...fine and good. But, then, just for the hell of it, he was charged with "a crime against nature". The newspaper made a mistake, though, for North Carolina General Statute 14-177 says it is THE crime against nature. You should know that the case law has said that "it" (being sodomy) includes virtually anything and applies to straight people, too.

§ 14-177. Crime against nature
If any person shall commit the crime against nature, with mankind or beast, he shall be punished as a Class
I felon.

Consensual sex is protected by privacy rulings from the Supreme Court, so this (unless it was in a public place, involved a minor, involved prostitution, or was non-consensual) is totally unconstitutional from my perspective.

Urgh!

Moore M. Soldier at Bragg charged with HIV assault. 18 Jul 2007 News and Observer. Available from: http://www.newsobserver.com/news/story/640796.html
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Mar. 3rd, 2007 @ 10:24 am Flying Coffees
For the first time and in the most random of places, I actually was threatened for drinking a coffee. Yesterday I was sitting with a friend at Caffe Driade (which is a very "friendly" coffee shop) when a random blond woman walks by muttering about "they're all gay"; she then goes to get her coffee, walks back to get her bike while muttering more loudly some combination of "nasty, nasty, nasty, sick, deserve what you get", and finally gets to the terrace above us where she shouts "I should throw my coffee at you". We were pretty certain that she was off her meds, but still...

I think this was the perfect ending to the week from hell in which I have complications in my internship choices for the summer, am owed thousands of dollars in invoices by the School of Public Health for Student Government, and have long-distance relationship problems.
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Dec. 26th, 2006 @ 03:10 pm Normality is Now Abnormal
You know, I have never felt so normal in my life as I did reading this statement on the cause of homosexuality:

“The primary emotional condition which is derived from parental influences in the male infant who is destined for sexual normalcy, is an attitude of desire toward his mother. This is an attitude which never disappears, which resists the inhibitions imposed by an ethical education, although weakening into the tenderness of filial chastity, and which is strengthened by an imitation of the father’s virile character. In the homosexual, this attitude quickly disappears, or rather hides itself in the profound depths of the instinctive being” (Hesnard A. Summers JC, transl. Strange lust: the psychology of homosexuality. New York: Amethnol Press; 1933. p 50-1.)

How did the psychoanalysts get away with this?

I will have you know that I am taking one for the team (we have a team and, apparently, a “tendency to place their loyalty to one another above their loyalty to the institution or government they serve”[1] but don’t be confused: it’s NOT a baseball team[2]) by reading old texts on sexuality. It’s painful!

Good Housekeeping gets the award for my favorite, though, “The homosexual chooses a way of life that shuts out marriage and the creation of a family. He is forced to live a guilt-ridden double life, hiding his secret lest he be exposed and disgraced. … When he grows older and can no longer attract men, he lives a pitiful existence, scorned by younger males and forced to pay for the company he wishes.” (David L. “Our son was different”. Good Housekeeping. 1966 Jan;162:115.) Ouch.

Already read (complete with lots of porn in Latin): Krafft-Ebing R von. Rebman FJ, transl. Psychopathia sexualis: a medico-forensic study. Translation of 12 ed. Brooklyn (NY): Physicians and Surgeons Book Company; 1935.

Next up: Henry GW. Sex variants: a study of homosexual patterns. New York: Paul B Hoeber, Medical Book Department of Harper & Brothers; 1948. (It’s dedicated to his wife and includes 30 pages of “medical illustrations” of sex.)

Notes:

1. Men only. Time. 1955 Dec 26:19.
2. Say homosexuals didn’t play baseball. Science Digest. 1956 Sep;40(3):37.
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